Addiction

Ok, so I'm blogging again...just to do it. I think sometimes I understand myself better when I try to write what I feel. Like today, I have found a new addiction, this being the precursor to my Sims 2 addiction that will be starting next week, just as soon as I get my copy. ^_^ Yay Sims 2!!! I've been waiting for this for almost a year. Anyway, that being said I have found a new computer addiction. I'm playing a marvelous game call Zoo Tycoon, cousin to Rollercoaster Tycoon, etc. So, in this game you try to build a successful Zoo. So far, I have been having a riot. When I get a little bored I think I'll probably have to let the Lions free or something. All of this comes about because I'm trying to keep myself relatively sane while I wait for life to kick back in. It's like the pause button got hit when Myrt died on Tuesday... We keep hearing things about Joe, apparently his leg had to be amputated...yeah, so I'm focusing on something else, at least until I can start planning the wedding. I miss Alan so much, it's hard to do relationships long distance. I was talk to Anna today because it's her birthday and she was telling me that it's weird to her that people she knows might be having kids inthe next 3 to 5 years. I told her that that's life, it sneaks up on you when you least expect it. I think Alan is my biggest addiction of all. Him and life with him...I want it so much I would need rehab at this point should he get taken from me. I hope Joe won't be that bad off without Myrt... but I know he will. When you live for someone it's hard to live without them. Well, from my limited expirience anyway.

Fire!!!!

Ok, so I make a blog and never stop blogging.....but this is too cool to not mention. So, my sister and I went to a movie,The Princess Diaries 2, and lo and behold, half way through the previews the fire alarm goes off! "There is a fire on your level, please proceed to the nearest exit. Do not use the elevator." The whole time the flashy lights were on and we were all looking around at each other. So, everyone got up, went out the exit, and then proceeded to go back around to the lobby and re-enter the theater. The guys up there said there was no fire and he hadn't been informed about it in any way. So, we went back in and watched the movie... It was cute but a bit too Disney. The whole time I kept wondering....where is the elevator?? I've never seen one around here... So, it was a bit of an adventure. I was a little bit bummed out because I tried to call Alan, my fiance, to tell him about it but no one answered. Ah well. Oh, at the end of the movie my younger brother's friends were coming out of another movie and they stopped and talked to us for a few seconds. They're funny kids... They said they wanted Chris to come back and we should tell him that, not that they missed him, just that he should come back. It was cute. That's about it...I'm sure I'll post tomorrow. I'm enjoying this blog entirely too much.

I Stood Upon A High Place

I stood upon a high place,
And saw, below, many devils
Running, leaping,
And carousing in sin.
One looked up, grinning,
And said, "Comrade! Brother!"

~Stephen Crane

A Long Week

Well, I think I decided to create a blog today just because I've had one heck of a week. In fact, I'd even go as far as to say it's been one Hell of a week, and I'm not even sure that the events that have caused me to say this are over. I guess honestly I've been thinking a lot this week about life events. Birth, death, marriage, and even whether or not it's all worth it. Last night my sister broke up with her boyfriend and I had to wonder, as she was bawling her eyes out... is it all really worth the drama?? I mean, I just got engaged this weekend, and I can't even tell half my family because of a particualarly tragic death that happened a few days later. Talk about your timing, and then my sister is living out her own tragedy... too much drama and trauma and craziness. I wish the world would just start making sense again so that I could take a step back and see where the big picture was going. If it's going to bad or strange places I think I'd like a ticket out...hopefully to some exotic local with those umbrella drinks in coconuts. I miss Hawaii sometimes. I think I need a beach to walk along sometimes. It clears the mind. Then again, it's too much like being trapped in summer. After a while any place can become a prison.